03.06.2026

Happy June!!! I wanted to do this entry days ago but then one of

my linked images stopped linking, then neocities was down for half

the day, and then other things that stopped me in my tracks. But!

I'm here now! Celebrating yet another month gone! And like every

month recently, there's quite a few things that've happend.

For starters, I've officially finished my A-Level career. I've done

my last exam, so, I'm officially done! It feels so surreal. Two

years of school, two years of my life, finished. It seems so

unceremonious, honestly. Mostly because we don't have an end of year

prom or any end of school year celebration. We don't even come in

for our results, we get them online (I'm pretty sure.) I guess I'm

used to celebration for these events. It's a HUGE loss but yknow.

Anyways, I've suceeded in formal education! I'm proud of me! Now,

just to wait for my results...euuugh I'm trying not to think about

it too much. I don't feel worried per se, just naturally nervous.

Next month is when I officially turn 18! Eighteen! Legal adult age!

I have NO idea how I feel about this even now. Just nervous and weird.

It feels unnatural because I honestly still feel 16. Though, I guess age

doesn't have any specific feeling. It's just a fact of how long you've

lived, plus some legal perks. Though I don't think I'll be drinking,

driving, smoking, having sex, getting married or getting pregnant any

time soon. So, really, it's just a number for me. Like it's been every

birthday. Except now I'm expected to be adulting.

Speaking of adulting, I've been applying to jobs. It's hell, ofcourse

I've emailed and applied for maybe 30 or more different roles.

About 10 have rejected me. The others aren't responding. I've

resorted to calling because it's a lot better getting rejected

by a human voice than an email or no message at all. Atleast for

me. I have been invited to an interview though! One. Single.

Interview. I am grateful, but I can definetely see why it's so

discouraging for so many. It's brain numbing at the best of times.

Agrivating at the worst of times. I've gone out and handed CVs for

two days, just to be met with "apply online." Very frustrating, but

if I'm lucky, I'll do good at the interview and get the job. Even

then, I won't give up because, man, I actually WANT a job. I'll

probably be doing this for a lot of my life so I might as well get

a taste of it now. And I do want to make my own money. And get out

of the house.

Anyways, that's the major events of May. I have unspeakable amounts

of free time for the next few...months? Now? So I'll have to find

stuff to fill the days with. I hope I can update this site more. I'm

making references for artfight. I don't think I'll manage to make ALL

my OCs (there's about 20 of them...) so I'm focusing on 5 and seeing how

it goes. Apart from that, taking care of my health more, getting back into

my hobbies, planning for uni, learning to drive etc etc. I'm just happy

I NEVER NEVER NEVER have to do another times essay again. NEVER!!! THAT'S

THE TRUE WIN!!! Anywhho, I think that's it. I'll be back when I'm 18! Aaaah

scaryyy, but, what can we do, right?